Monday, January 04, 2010

God as my Guardian

"I don't want money / I don't want silver or gold / I don't want glory/ I don't want things I can't hold / I don't want ashes / and I don't want time / I just want Jesus to hold me close and / be my guardian / be mine be mine ." Jeremy Darling & band in The Rock Church Minneapolis

I cried a lot at Faithwalkers during this song. God is teaching me that He is my guardian, not a husband, not my friends, not my bank accounts, but He is. He is removing the idols, and I am cutting them down when I see them so I can worship Him. He does not treat me as my sins deserve, but treats me with grace. Therefore, I respond in increasing measures of love, trust, and obedience.

Today, this theology got real practical. Mom and I had a yummy lunch at the Olive Garden for her late birthday present :) We started talking about my student loans and Mom was talking about some drastic measures to help me pay them off. God made me realize that Mom was trying to play God and fix all my problems in my life.

I told her that yes I was working hard at finding a job & being wise with money, but ultimately God is my provider and the one I trust for all this. She was like, "God doesn't physically provide. He just provides wisdom & strength." Umm... no, God does provide." She changed the subject, but I thought, "Well, God will change Mom on that once she reads the BIBLE." Anyway, just the fact that I could look her in the face and say, I trust a God for real tangible results is an amazing testament about how God is the author of my faith :)

Anyway, that's really cool how God is using Faithwalkers to change not only my but Mom's life as well in growing in ever increasing trust in God!

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