Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Going SQUIRRELY!!!!!

YES, this is my second post of the day. I was coming out of Braiden after eating delicious grub with Tim and Mike from RSS and I noticed a squirrel who was begging for food. Actually two of them were chasing each other down the side walk (I know, they were sooo cute!) and one stopped like, "Hey! A college student that just got out of Braiden's dining hall! I'll stand up and beg for food - like this - and make those big eyes - like this and raise my paws to make her go 'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw.'" Then this guy came along and said, "Yeah, the squirrels are begging again." We talked about how they ate during the summer when there weren't as many students willing to give them a piece of a bagel, pizza, candy bar, etc. when they begged. I remarked that I thought the squirrels got a bit skinnier during the summer. He laughed and I went to class.

Today I was thinking about how the squirrels are starting to rely on us students to give them food. They were created to eat nuts and berries - foods that would give them amino acids and the correct vitamins that they needed. Instead they're living off of pizza crusts, Kit Kat bars, and Gibbs Bagels which are tasty to humans in regular amounts, but in garbage - bag fuls could have adverse affects. What if a whole new generation of squirrels born this spring (because in the spring is when all baby animals are born, right??) was taught by their parents how to beg for food from us college students? They would never learn to eat the berries and nuts they were designed to eat. A whole generation will have deviated from what it was designed to be.

Now, this stuff about the squirrels isn't just me talking about cute squirrels because they're cute - and - cute - but, it's about us and God. God designed us for Himself and to use the world to reflect Him and to desire things that would reflect Him and that He could satisfy. But we get up on our hind legs, bug out our eyes and hold out our hands to the world for stuff - for clothing, gadgets, relationships, fame, etc. I've been guilty of doing this too. But I and others have tasted the 'nuts and berries' the pleasures that only God could provide and have had our needs satisfied by God alone. We still pick the occasional 'crust' from this world off the ground to enjoy, but we know that it is not our primary satisfaction. Further more, I hope and pray that we as future parents or professionals or members of the larger Church family will teach the next generation how to find the berries and nuts - how to find the pleasures of God. Because God has taught us, we will teach them how He has designed them to live.

Aslan's water or Turkish Delight

I was walking around campus when suddenly I had a thought about the Lion Witch and the Wardrobe (LWW) novel series and movie. A thought came to me about how Edmund asked for Turkish Delight from the White Queen of Narnia. He took a bite and continued to eat ravenously. Soon Turkish Delight was all that he could think about. The Queen promised him more if he returned to Narnia with the rest of the Pensive children (Peter, Susan, and Lucy).

In another book in the series called the Dawn Treader, several new characters and the little mighty mouse (Yeah!) Reechicheep sail around beyond Narnia and eventually are called to sail out of the world and as close as Aslan's country as they can get. Once they move beyond the known world, they start to drink the water that appears to come directly from Aslan's country. They find that they only need a small amount for it to satisfy them, and it appears to be part of the reward for seeking Aslan's country. It is also sweet which is not a property of water found anywhere.

There are some real differences between the Turkish Delight offered by the queen and the water from Aslan's country. Turkish Delight is something anyone in Narnia using the right ingredients could make and give to Edmund. In the movie, the queen appeared to conjur it from out of nowhere, but it was still a product of the world they were in. Turkish Delight didn't satisfy Edmund. It only left him for the desire to want more. This desire led to him playing foul with his siblings which made him forsake the brotherly nature that was in him. The queen did not give Edmund the Turkish Delight out of her own goodwill (in the movie, one can find no mercy in her), but as a tool to satisfy her own glory.

In contrast, Aslan's water is something that went beyond Narnia or the world any of the travelers had known. It was always present, but the travellers had to find it. The water itself was not what they were seeking, but it was Aslan. Therefore, the water came as a result of seeking Aslan. It quenched them better than even their own water back home. This water also allowed them to look into His country more, so they were not decieved by it, but their eyes were opened.

In this same way, how often do we eat Turkish Delight instead of seek the sweet water from the country beyond our own? Satan may feed us a small bit of Turkish Delight - enough that we can smell it, but if we own it and take it from him, we only want more. We decieve ourselves, and we seek only that Delight instead of something bettter. But when we drink of the water from the
living God, we are immediately quenched. We are unblinded, and we begin to seek Him - the source of the water instead of just merely the water itself. Being satisfied with something that is beyond this world only comes from seeking the One who is set apart from it, the One who created it, and the only One who can restore it and ourselves.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

The depths

I am in the depths of the Library. (In the basement.) I was studying for the MCAT and studying the subject I have to teach everyone else. Just so happens that this subject reminds me of one great weakeness and reminds me of how that was exposed. I'm identifying a whole bunch with certain people associated with my weaknesses. I'm being vauge because I have to be - sorry to any readers.

So, I drew nearer to God. By going to a biochemistry site. Seeing everything else I was studying showing up right there in Creation helped me reconnect. I cried out, "Oh, God, You are my God, Earnestly I seek You!" My heart was satisfied. Yes, amino acids could be produced in a flask, but it was God who spoke the atoms into existence, God who spoke the molecules into life and action. I know because I trust His word and science validates that.

I pull myself out of the depths of the flesh - of thoughts that were threatening to consume me as I studied. But I ran to God and let Him hold me instead.


Praise God :)

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Bearing by prayer, the unequal yoke


Today Mitch at Summitview gave a message on the foundations of marriage. Most of the stuff, I knew. Other stuff I didn't know such as how intense the spiritual battle over it was. That was interesting because I think Mitch is a Revalations guy where John is a Genisis guy. I would've had a Biology / ID lesson with John teaching it :) Anyway, at the end, all the married people had to write on index cards what stuff they had to work on, and us single (The Rock) people were supposed to pray for them. Stephen, Taylor, and I passed back the index cards from our row because we didn't need them. We told the couple behind us to pass them around. That little gesture was cool because we were helping them participate in Mitch's activity by giving them the cards because we didn't need them.

Anyway, we started praying and suddenly, it was laid on my heart to pray for any unequally yoked marriages at Summitview.


No, I have never married or dated a non - believer. Physically. But there are some that I have dated in my mind's eye. When Abba Father said, 'Stop bringing these guys into My presence (Rom 12:1)' Yeah. So, that stopped. But when I had to mentally separate myself from the images and thoughts I had of these guys, the hurt was still there. However, God ended up being 'more than enough' for me :)

Back to the present time

I consider myself lucky. Very lucky. When God got on my case, instead of running away from Him and nursing my own 'soft spots' in my heart for people, I ran to Him in tears because I knew that I was doing something wrong and was sorry. I kicked and screamed and cried as He pried these thoughts and images of these people out of my heart and replaced them with Himself. (Open heart surgery if done by God really hurts. The Sword that pierces bone and marrow really hurts, but it heals nonetheless).

I cannot even begin to imagine the hurt that may be felt by brothers and sisters in Christ who are unequally yoked and who have given their whole heart - yes, even their whole selves to a non - believer. They either came to Christ after that union, or pursued that union against the wisdom and the pleadings of their Savior and Lord. Sure, I can try to imagine it, but to have that be my reality would be unbearable.

Yet, God used that when I prayed this morning. God took that pain and, using His spirit inside of me(Rom 8), interceeded for His children that are suffering within this yoke, interceeding for their comfort and asking for their love to be poured at Jesus' feet so their nonbelieving spouses could see Christ through them.

Oh, God, even now, even after I Googled several testimonies of unequally yoked people, I still could never imagine that I ever longed for it. Yet I can't even imagine that being my reality. So, I pray again for my brothers and sisters at Summitview who have this yoke as their reality. I pray you comfort them and maybe evne lead them to these sites or each other so they can recieve fellowship and not be alone. I pray that Mitch and John and Rob and everyone will welcome them in and not judge them for their yoke. God, I know You work all things out for the good, and for Your glory, and I pray that these people see that, and walk in that truth. Amen.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Completely Ridiculously Awesome - Cool Times!!

You wouldn't think that this title would be for a blog about the Premedica Symposium, but it is :) Anyway, it was about cancer research and all the new stuff. I hosted one of the speakers which meant that I got water and juice for him when he needed it and just chilled out with him before the Symposium started.

The cool part was seeing more about how cell growth is regulated with all the proteins and stuff. I was thinking, "WHOA!!!! That's massively complex," And if a scientist went in and looked at it more, I think he or she would see that it had to be designed because of exactly how each part works out. NO, ID IS NOT A COP OUT BECAUSE WE THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE IT'S COMPLEX MEANS IT'S DESIGNED AND THEREFORE WE WON'T GO AND UNDERSTAND IT!!!! <-- Sorry, that's addressing my professor's rant about it... But anyway there was a speaker who I think was Christian because her son was carrying around a water bottle that read, "God made me" and I was like, "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw! That's sooo cute!!!" This speaker is a faculty member in the College of Veterenary Medicine and Biomedical Sciences - the heart of CSU where people flock to and so, to realize that God has at least one worker in a position to reach a whole lot of that college made me really excited :) :)

The third cool part was at first not so cool. I started to get a nasty stomach ache after lecture two. My uncle has been dead from lung cancer for nearly 14 months now, and I think all that was coming back even though my mind didn't really acknowledge it, the rest of me did. I was hoping I wouldn't throw up or anything, but I went to the bathroom in between lectures a few times because I thought 'oh no, this is it.' I was feeling really bad during our refreshment break, but I knew that I had to stay with the speaker I was hosting. So, I thought about how God was sovereign in regulation of cells and everything, and trusted He would be sovereign over my gastrointestinal (GI) tract. I ended up keeping my stomach through the whole thing, and I felt better after I sat out one lecture.

After the symposium, a few of us helped clean up. We had massive amounts of baked food :) I got to get a whole bunch of grub! What's really awesome was that we spent so much time serving during the Symposium, and it just showed that God did reward us richly right then. I even had grub to give away to others :) I also helped one of the pre - med faculty advisors out to her car which she really liked :)

All in all, the Symposium just showed God's faithfulness in everything. Science without God is useless, it solves things, but if it doesn't glory the Creator, it is for nothing. If you erradicate someone's tumor, but if they do not know the Creator that designed their bodies, it is still a loss. But this Symposium glorified the Creator who designed every cell and who provided for the event to happen.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

The Creator Selected Out of His House

"It is written," he said to them, " 'My house will be called a house of prayer,' but you are making it a den of robbers.' " Mat 21:13

God, oh God my CREATOR, what is going on with Your house, oh that a lie would spread - today - yes, today in Your house, there are thieves - that steal Your glory from Creation, Your honor, Your name that we may no longer praise You as Creator - Lord, Lord, please make them stop...

Oh, God thank You, God, Thank You for John Meyer, Your servent who has kept your body of Believers which is Summitview Community Church in awe of You as Creator - worshiping You in Your rightful place, with these worshippers, we truly know every aspect of You, Lord. Thank you for making us this voice that stands out. Thank You so much, Lord.

Ok, right. So, here's the deal: Today was Evolution Sunday in the churches in the US. John told us that and we were all like, "WHAT?????????????!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!?" Personally, I think John Morris and his buddies are probably all over at ICR turning out articles like CRAZY to get people to wake up and come to their senses.

This SO can't be happening. It is, but it can't be. Not here. Well, in a way, I see why it can happen. Because we have forgot God. That's the only explanation. And also that we have been told in our classrooms and everything that Macroevolution is true. I believed it for a good six months after becoming Christian, and who knows what I would have thought had not God put me into Summitview to be taught by our bio - nerdy pastor why biologically it doesn't make sense.

So, why did we in the US forget the Lord our God? The answer, I think, lies in Deutoronomy 8 where it says specifically, "Do not forget the Lord your God when you are rolling in it." Also, like it says in the first half of Isaiah, we have forsaken Him and built our own idols. John has also spoken about this numerous times, and I see it in our own lives. Why else would I be sucked into wasting homework time browsing on line for an iPod before God and an impending essay deadline knock me to my senses? How could I long for a metal covered circuit board to satisfy me in a way that only God can? Don't get me wrong, it's nice to have, but the longing for it can't consume me. But for so many people, the stuff they want consumes them.

In church, John quoted a guy who did the finnances seminar yesterday and he told everyone to focus on their dreams and goals in order to follow these principles. That just stank of using God to get what you want, and having what you want be a motivation over honoring God by being a steward of His blessings. I was siting behind the glass panels due to feeling feverish, and I was saying, "What? WHAT?!?!?! No way!!! That's just not right!" God cannot God cannot be a means to an end. He will not be misused and mistreated and dishonored like that. He won't allow it - ok, maybe He allows it for a while, but in the end, those that just used him will pay. They will be shamed by Him when they stand before Him.

Are we as a nation like that? Do we just pray to Him for comfort or to get stuff or - I mean, not all of us are like that, but I am referring to the larger culture. Does it encourage using God as a means to an end? If so, then the idea that He is Creator really isn't important, and the truth of it would probably scare a whole bunch of people because they'd realize that "He's real - He's really real!!!' <-- yes, John, you say this a lot so this is in my blog, but I like it :) :)

Anyway, those are my very long thoughts about Evolution Day.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

The Price of Love

So, I was looking up the price of flowers to send for my mom and my grandma because I wanted to send them something. I was like, "HOLY CRAP!!!" because flowers are EXPENSIVE!! How do college boys ever buy for their girlfriends or friends by for their friends or... on Valentines day?

It made me ask the question, 'How much is the price of love?" Well, 29.99 - 259.99 / boquet apparently. But seriiously. How do I tell Mom and Grandma how much I love them? Valentines day serves as a reminder to let them know, of course, but I think it is more. It is living my life exemplifying what they have given me: For my mom, she gave me love and a future and supported me as I developed my talents (school, music, drawing, cross country) and forgave me when I found my not - so - talents such as counted cross stitch, games involving balls, and calculus. For Grandma, she taught me what a life lived for God is even if she does not know Him as her savior. She was my second mom (or fourth mom if you count my biological and foster moms.) We baked bread and cookies together and talked about life as we groomed her dogs or went on long drives.

Therefore, showing them how much I love them would be living out those things they taught me. For example, every time I bake I think of Mom and Grandma and us baking in the kitchen. Everytime I take care of kids, I think of Mom taking care of me.

I am memorizing Hebrews 13:15 "Through Christ therefore, let us offer to Him a sacrifice of praise - fruit of lips that praise His name." In the same way I wanted to give Mom and Grandma only tangible gifts, I think we can just give God tangible gifts like tithes or just being legalistic. But living out what God has done for us and living in relationship with Him is analogous to what I hope to do with my mom and Grandma - show Him that I love Him and displaying the work He has done through me by living it out in my daily life.

PS: I think I will make Mom and Grandma pictures of flowers and send them with a card :)

PSS: I think that though they would like the flowers, they would have wanted me to save my money for other stuff.

PSSS: I think we will all remember the hugs and kisses we gave each other each time we saw each other more than the little gifts we bought here and there.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Reporting LIVE from the Chemistry Building!!

That's right, readers, you read right! The Chemistry building thankx to CSU's awesome wireless internet networking skills! It's funny that my desktop should show some random pictures with none other than the verse Romans 1:20 on there... hmm...

Anyway, I thought it was cool. I'm waiting for a premedica meeting to start in about 1/2 and hour and yeah. So, what should I write now? Well, it's just weird that I'm in a building where I'm all over this whole God is Cool thing, and everyone's like "Huh? What? God?" and sometimes I have a tendancy to feel all alone. Then I'm like, 'I shouldn't feel all alone because God is with me.' But then I'm like, 'But Christians are in the minority.' But then I think about the US demographics and think that can't be logical because the majority of the US attends church. But the nation doesn't show it by its overall fruit. Should we just assume that if people don't do it OUR way (aka the GCM or whatever Church sub - organization I am in) that it is not legit? Just because another culture is different, do we automatically assume that they need Jesus? Do the Christians that go all out feel all alone because they are so few? If so, should we judge that people that are 'complacent' don't know Christ?

Questions questions, well my Premedica meeting is calling! Blood and guts and drugs, oh my!! And to think the Great Physician was the Author of it all, woo hoo!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Loosing an eternal family member

Are you lost or just gone?
Are you wandering or
Do you not know Home?

Which are you?
My brother(1), my friend?

Come back to your Lord
Or find the reality of Him.

God's hand is not to short.
To pull him back
Or to wipe my eyes.

God's power is not too weak
To reveal Himself even if
You don't seek.

God's love is enough
To save you and to
Comfort me.

Though this time is hard
I will still worship and sing
Praises to Thee.

1. brother in this sense refers to being a brother in Christ to me aka. a fellow Believer.

Ok, so, yeah. I am starting the grieving process yet AGAIN. Hopefully this will be short. But I know I'm going to have to grieve this loss. So, I'm crying, but the 'restorative' tasks are kicking in almost immediately along with the 'disorganized' proccesses of grief. (If you don't understand, that's HD332 talk for alternately putting things back together after a loss and being completely whacked out with everything all at the same time. Trust me, they can be concurrent.) Anyway, what I lost is a fellow Christian in the sense that he said that he has stepped away from the faith and doesn't believe it anymore. I really am trusting God because God is the only one that can help at this point. Of course I'm upset, but not completely without hope. If anything, it was the best thing my friend could've told me because I can be praying for specific needs for him.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Blogging about a quote in the computer lab

"The pursuit of truth shall set you free even if you never catch up with it." Clarence Darrow - yes, THE Clarence Darrow from the Scopes trial.

This quote is on the wall in the CAHS computer lab in the Education Building. I have been looking at it for almost 2 semesters (woo hoo!!) and it has always intriuged me. Anyway, I thought about how Darrow pursued the truth about whether teaching evolution or Creation (or ID) was valid in the schools. Though the trial was more of a proto - trial, it did have people asking for the truth.

Now, 50 years later with Behe writing Darwin's Black Box and the ID movement turning heads and coming into mainstream press, once more, people are seeking truth again. The truth about where we came from will set us free because we will know for certain whether there is a God and the answers to all the questions that issue raises. Look no further, folks!! ROMANS 1:20!!! :) :) Anyway, it's interesting that Darrow understood that about the pursuit of truth even though I think that he lived his life as an agnostic.

But I thought of the second part of the quote "... even if you never catch up with it [truth]" We come into the College of Applied Human Sciences and want truth and knowledge. Well, most everyone knows that the human life cycle is divided up into stages, but depending on which developmental theorist you ask, you'll get four or seven. And there are other things: People were made (or have evolved / adapted) to need relationship. Hence there is Bowlby's theory of attachment. There are many other theories, which keep in mind, a theory in the scientific sense is a framework for interpreting data and forming hypothesis and not mere musings, that are out there.

But everything is relative. Spirituality is relative if it is only defined as 'meaning making' of life. One person's spirituality may be O - Chem. Another person's may be Buddhism. Another person's may be pantheism / goddessism / agnosticism. Another person's may be the Methodist creed... Same with relationships. A man in holy matrimony with a woman is the same as a man and a woman who merely live together which is the same as a woman and a woman living as if they were in holy matrimony...

We never catch up with the truth in my department becauase we do not believe it exists. Sure, there are observable truths such as developmental stages or attachment theory or Gottman's research on marriage, but what about Truth? No. Because your truth is not my truth is not the prof down the hall's truth.

God, I pray that those who run after the truth in HDFS and in the College of Applied Human Sciences find Your truth because You promised that if we seek You, we will find You. And You know the plans for us, plans for good, plans that entail us - all of us to eventually praise Your name as Lord, Savior, Creator, Truth and Life Giver. amern.